There’s a place I keep finding myself in lately.
Not at the beginning of things.
Not at the end.
But in the middle.
The part where things are still unfolding.
Still unclear.
Still becoming.
For a long time, I didn’t know what to do with that space.
I thought the goal was always to move through it as quickly as possible. To fix it, understand it, improve it, and move on so I could feel steady again.
That was my pattern in almost everything.
If something felt off, I would try to correct it.
If I felt overwhelmed, I would try to manage it.
If I didn’t understand something, I would try to figure it out as quickly as possible.
I thought that’s how you create peace.
But over time, I started noticing something I couldn’t ignore anymore.
I wasn’t becoming more peaceful.
I was becoming more tired.
What I didn’t see at first
I used to believe peace came after resolution.
After I got it right.
After I figured it out.
After I improved it enough.
So I lived in a constant cycle of noticing discomfort and trying to fix it.
Even internally.
But the more I did that, the more disconnected I felt from myself.
I wasn’t actually staying with what I was feeling.
I was always moving away from it in order to fix it.
And that came at a cost.
What I’m learning now
I’m learning something that feels simple, but has changed how I move through my life.
Not everything is meant to be fixed immediately.
Not every feeling is a problem.
Not every moment of discomfort means something is wrong.
Sometimes it’s just life happening in real time.
And I don’t have to rush out of it to be okay.
I can stay.
Why “Held in the Middle”
This space is called Held in the Middle because that’s where I’ve been learning to live again.
In the middle of becoming and not yet being there.
In the middle of clarity and uncertainty.
In the middle of peace and discomfort.
In the middle of faith and unanswered questions.
Not at the extremes.
Not at arrival points.
But in the process.
And what I’m starting to understand is this:
Being in the middle doesn’t mean something is wrong.
It just means life is still unfolding.
What this space will be
This isn’t a place where I have everything figured out.
It’s a place where I’m learning to:
stop turning every discomfort into something I need to fix
stay present instead of constantly managing myself
listen to my body instead of overriding it
build a kind of peace that doesn’t depend on control
live my faith in the middle, not just after things are resolved
This space is less about answers, and more about awareness.
Less about fixing life, and more about staying with it.
If you’re here
You might be in your own middle too.
In a season where things feel unfinished.
Where you’re still becoming who you are.
Where you’re learning that peace might not come from fixing everything, but from learning how to stay even when things aren’t resolved.
If that’s you, you’re not alone here.
I’m still learning this too.
And this is where I’m writing from now.
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Leigh Leigh
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