Wanderer

I can’t sleep so I will write.

It is strange to me how the human body can basically have a mind of its own. I seem to be getting 4-5 hours of sleep before waking up and staring at the ceiling. If you know me personally this is unheard of as I am a lover of thy 7-8 hours of sleep. So why now body why are you going on sleep strike? Is it because all we have done summer break is rest and recoup and now your taking a stand against me and rising up in rebellion against my will for you? LOL It sounds funny when worded that way.

I haven’t blogged since January. That is insane! I honestly don’t even know why I keep this thing. I use it and abuse it, love it and then leave it. I don’t know as we age our time becomes so filled with so many things that take us in all sorts of directions.

I have a friend who was talking about how not all who wander are lost and she was expressing that sometimes we do have to get our hands into a lot of things until we figure out what it truly is we want to do. it reminded me of myself and for the first time made me realize I am a wanderer and have been for years.

I wander into writing, I wanderer in my art, and mostly what gets me off track are these two things 1. Procrastination and 2. Boredom.

I know I’m not lost (after all it is Christ who has set me free) ;)….. but how long must I wander?

Well the simple truth is the length I wander is actually co-dependent on me. I am the captain of this ship.

I think fear also handicaps my focus. Fear of being selfish and self- gratifying. I go all in so to speak and then tend to neglect my sweet family in my pursuits of finding and indulging in my creative outlets.

Maybe you feel the same way, I don’t know?

Do you wander and get your hands into a million things trying to figure out what you enjoy the most?

Do you have a hard time staying committed to writing or journaling?

I use to be a journaling queen and all that seems to have stopped. Maybe this will be the start of a new blog quest or maybe this will be a blip in the air space for 2019.

🤷🏼‍♀️🤷🏼‍♀️

Ash’Leigh

Oh Grow Up!

JUST KIDDING…..PLEASE NEVER GROW UP in that I am too stiff, joints hurt, old, too serious, and boring kind of way!

It’s important to always be reaching for something bigger then yourself!

As a Mother of 4, I sometimes feel like I am accomplishing something big if I have tucked my kids in bed at night with happy hearts and happy full tummies. I can become fixated on just being one identity, their Mom.

This morning as I was getting ready for the day I was reflecting on how good it felt to just get up and run this morning. For some odd reason I really enjoy that time. My mind began to run away into the finish line of a race. What fun that would be to actually train for something and then accomplish it! I have participated in 5Ks before but not for competition, just for fun.

My mind then quickly came back to its auto drive (the mom mind). I thought about my children and how they would react to seeing their Mom actually competing in something, and them for once cheering me on on the side lines.

I became excited!!

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I don’t want my children to think that their childhood is the only moments for all the fun, the practices, the hard work, the games, the wins, etc.

I want to show them that you don’t stop chasing your dreams when you become an adult, a mother, or a father. I don’t want them to believe that becoming an adult only means working late hours, toting your kids to and from, work, cooking, and cleaning.

When you look at it that way that’s not too inspiring.

Life wasn’t made for us to come to completion early in our lives, it’s a race to the finish.

Lately I have been desperately looking for inspiration and this morning I think I found it.

I’m inspired to show my children to never stop pursuing what you love just because you are told that the fun is suppose to stop once you are a grown up.

My hope is that when they are finally an adult they will look back and remember their Mom as an inspiration to never settle, never stop pursuing whatever it is that makes you feel healthy and happy!

Has becoming an adult caused you to give up on a dream you once had as a child? Maybe it’s time for you to become the inspiration instead of searching for it! 😉

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xoxo

Leigh Leigh

 

 

Never again! Bad dreams and co-sleeping with your child! #momstruggle

My babies are older now. It’s been a good four year since we have had a little bitty baby in the house. Some days I miss that. Mine are 5 and 8 now.

Some nights I lay awake day dreaming about how I wish they were still little enough to snuggle with at night. Little warm and lavender smelling heaters to keep you warm and cozy all night. I would long for a night they would ask to sleep with us because they were afraid of a shadow on the wall of some sort.

It just doesn’t really happen here.

In those day dreams this is exactly what I had envisioned……

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See isn’t this so sweet!!? Momma Cat is snuggling baby cat keeping her little safe and sound. Awe… No more bad dreams baby, Mommy is here!

Can I just interrupt this mushy moment with a little dose of reality!?

Well it finally happened last night! Our 5 year old daughter came bolting in our room tears and all with that sweet little innocent voice: “Daddy I want you!”

“Okay get in the middle of us!”

That warm sweet lavender scented soft baby has vanished leaving me with a sleepy, whiney, very boney, sweaty ball of a mess child! She didn’t smell so sweet, or lovely for that matter! More like Chicken Nuggets and Cheetos, laced with smelly feet!

I can’t recall much but if I could paint you a picture I am pretty sure my night looked a lot like these pictures to follow..

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We started the night out in my favorite sleeping position. Momma on her back! Now imagine a life size 5 year old on my tummy, and I am not quiet that wide! 🙂

That position left me winded and uncomfortable so I rolled over onto my side. This is where her sweaty hair was suffocating me!

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I manage to push her off my face and try this half side, half stomach position.

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I suspect we got away with this co-sleeping position for a good portion of the night. Well, until my shoulder started to hurt and my side began to ache!

I decided it was time to give the whole tummy position a run for it’s money! After all it’s probably close to 2 in the morning and I am beginning to feel severely UNCOMFORTABLE!

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Oh brother.. I am going Apes, Bananas!!

Why can’t she roll over and sleep next to her DADDY!? It was HE WHO LET THE LITTLE DARLING INTO OUR BED! Why ME, Why ME!? Why am I the only one being pressed down on, kicked, slapped, elbowed, kneed, sweated, and slobbered on!!!!??

She is Child by day, Ninja Warrior by night!

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HELP! I can’t even breath at this point!

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And She has the nerve to wake up looking like this!

“Good Morning Momma!”

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I am all like, “Good morning Kenna!”

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My body feels like I just fought off a bull in my sleep all night!

Dodge this leg, dodge that elbow
Dodge this leg, dodge that elbow
Spanish bull fighter Jose Tomas
Spanish bull fighter Jose Tomas

NEVER AGAIN! NEVER!!!!! My back hurts, my arms hurt, my neck is stiff, I am sore all over!

So thank you DADDY and thank you POPPA for letting her watch that Scary Movie. I think if she comes back again, I am moving to the couch!

🙂 The countless joys of Motherhood!

Here is an actually picture of proof just how crazy our night was last night!!!

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Smile,

Leigh Leigh

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